Chixe

I need your help.

I'm in love with my best friend. Before I begin, yes, I know this sounds cliched (probably because it is) but it's giving me one hell of a time and I need the advice of people wiser than I am. Hear me out, please.

Sometime last year I became madly infuated with B. B was a really close friend to my best friend A. In fact, while I was probably A's best guy friend, B was closer than I am, for obvious reasons (like being female, for instance). Me falling for B sucked, because I didn't actually know her and didn't have any valid reason to like her. But there you go. Hormones can be strange things.

A helped me out throughout this time, while I was getting over my senseless infatuation for B. We became a lot more closer during this period than we did before, and I gradually came to like her instead.

It took me a very long time to build up my courage to tell her. I was, at that stage, more worried about saving the friendship than being together, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't want us to be more than friends. I presented my case as in a 'I like you, but it's getting in the way of this friendship and I just want you to know' way ... which actually worked. Our friendship survived that. We're still talking. In fact, I can still talk to her about my feelings for her, though it sounds awfully weird to do so. We joke about it and take it in good stride.

There's one problem, though. My best friend is in love with another guy. She told him, he admitted to the same feelings, but he didn't want to take anything to the second stage. I can't imagine why. The irony is that A liked me when I was so hung up over B, because (in her words): 'you were off the market for awhile, and I liked you because you were unattainable'. The guy she's in love with right now started off with her thinking he was in love with someone else, who turned out to be her. She liked him because she thought he was unattainable in the beginning.

Twisted, I know.

So here's my predicament. I'm in love with my best friend. Who's in love with another guy. Who isn't me. Who doesn't know her or understand her as well as I do. Who is probably God in her eyes right now.

And there's nothing I can do. Or is there? One part of me tells me I should give up and enjoy the friendship and suppress the feelings I have for her. And we interact. A lot. The other part of me is telling me to drop all and chase her. Go after her. Pursue with single-minded determination, even if she isn't interested, and is so in love with another guy.

What should I do? Please give me your thoughts. Thanks.